Dear you, my love.. A part of my life for, half of my breathe… Reason to live longer. My husband. This is an open letter to you.. According my habit. I want to tell the world feeling I felt because I m not good enough to tell you and speak up to you. I m sorry for making this mess for you. But husband, I very very love in you. I hate my days because I have to far away from you. I hate tomorrow if I realize I will wake up without your cuddle. Really, that s so bad for me. Then.. That surrender seems get laid. It bumped in my chest and make it want to explode. I hate this. I hate you, I hate distance. I m sorry I’ve been grumpy to you. often scold in public. I m sorry I always ask for things that you can not meet and make you feel guilty. Do you understand I really tormented by this? Officially I was pressed by this. Its feel sore.. When I have to said good bye in the train station. What s wrong for 5 days? That s no wrong. But, what s the meaning of 5 days if every second we were separated I ALWAYS COUNT IT? That s worse. Hun, All of my wishes isn’t get car.. Get pad, get house.. Yea I want it. But moreover than that thing I just WANT YOU. In my everysecond life. Just it. I m sitting alone in one of thousand chair on train.. Watching outside, that I m going far from your place now is very hurting my heart. My tears.. It always be falling down in my cheeks. World, tell him. I love him so much. The thing I want to erease the most is DISTANCE. I swear.. I very bad because it. I feel lonely like you said that your home going so silence without my pressence. I love you. I miss your armpit smell. I just want to close my eyes and open it beside you. Yea, is it too complicated? Is it too difficult? Life is tough. But, this simple thing is very disturb me. I hope you will understand. That sometimes.. It a not because I dont care. It because I was tormented with this situation and pretending that I m happy just make my feeling getting worse. So I choose to silent. And I know you are confusing with my habit. So, erase the diatance please. I love you as long my life, and every second.. I always miss you. Can you tell me how to heal this sickness? You get to tell me how to stop it? if missed you was wrong. how can I stop this longing when we are away. Even when we close this longing remains lodged in my chest. I m surrender.. I was broke. Because I love you. 
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